Getting hit on...

( My journal is not quite what I need it to be, so I'm changing it. )

sneaky_sena

Example: No Sweeping Exits or Offstage Lines
Uh. Tijuana and donkey porn references, and then - it's all sweet and a little heart-breaky anyway.
Bzuh? How?

The author reminds me of the fic I read in the first few months of falling for SPN, all full of prior history. And that's the fandom I married fell for.
I read DC... very... sometimes, right?
I'm still a free woman!

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And. An aside. Ok.
I'm warming to that Playthings scene, if only because that [you know what I'm talking about and I can't be bothered spoiler cutting] (oh god, what were K, J&J & Co thinking?)...
Didn't look like the first time?

*finally stops running and gets stabbed with the guided-missiles of fan slayage. TY Kripke!*

(Umm, yeah - Just go with the assumption I'm a crazy person, but initially I felt like the only person in the world who hated that episode. But, then I got all meta-y, and now I've appropriately fan-wanked myself round to loving it. I'm a fickle, fickle, person).

A lot of the latter stuff has been recced a million times. A lot of the earlier stuff isn't necessarily good. It's just a list of the things I watched/watch repeatedly.

All non-SPN because I'm a little to close to judge objectively.

( My Favourite Vids, by Cocombat, age: 24 )

Ok, first -
I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS!

*♥* *♥* *♥*

I'm so totally in love with fandom, and all the brilliantly talented people herein. When I think about the things everyone's creating just purely because you're awesome, the opportunity the 'net gives us to spread and share these things, it fills my little heart with Icing Sugar, it's that sweet.

Further, because I'm about 4 hours off Jan 1st here, but more importantly, the eating and drinkening is beginning, I doubt I'm going to be online again in the next 48 hours.

So, I'm saying it now:
A happy New Years to you all, you all Rock!


P.S. Sorry for abuse of caps-lock.

Just watching Heroes Ep 9.

Peter says something about life getting better after high school. Pretty much every piece of American pop-culture I've seen makes them sound like torture chambers or concentration camps. Jeeze, what are American High Schools like?
o_O


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Oh, and on an entirely unrelated note, there was an f-locked convo that evolved/devolved into discussions of tentacle porn, and look!
My brain presents even more ( Scenarios I will never write )

Badda-boomscht!
Yeah, there wasn't even any wincest. Ha! You lose, brain!



[Edit: Ok, so I shouldn't have such a screwed up body clock to start with, but given that I do, it's awesome having a friend who's equally sleep-irresponsible, who txt's you at nearly 1am on a Tuesday morning, and tells you the full moon is really pretty tonight, and hey, wanna go to the botanic gardens?
And now I'll got back to pretending I'm responsible and shit.]

Yeah, so, I've kinda ducked out of the SPN stuff altogether recently (I'm only up to new-season episode three), and that's included the fannish stuff.

Ok, so moving the cracklist to the SuperWiki in an attempt to avoid responsibility, turned out to be an incredibly awesome idea, and people adding/changing stuff has been fantastic.

But - I owe a huge public apology to jassy3399, because you asked me to beta a story (well, stories), and I flaked out on you big time. And I'm [footnote] really, really sorry for that, especially because it can be nerve-wracking enough to be a new author, without having a beta go AWOL on you, and I just wanted to make sure that you know that it's really been all about me being a flake, not your fic.
(Although, damn, that sounds worse in some ways than not actually having an excuse - ok, so there was a few 'RL issues', and then I just got stressed about being 'late' with stuff, and have barely been commenting anything, hence my sucktasticness)
I think it's awesome you're writing in SPN, and I liked the second fic you sent me even more, which is why I think you should write lots and lots, and I'm sorry I haven't been encouraging you and praising you lots and lots.
*takes a breath*

I'm uh. Going to go eat now.
Thanks.
And sorry.
And. Yeah...


* Oh jesus Hel. Someone else just emailed me about betaing, right in the middle of this post. What kind of freakish coincidence is that? What does it mean? Is the universe trying to guilt-trip me further?

Ok, I should use del.icio.us or something, but, for personal mems, so I don't lose it again for another few years:

A Night to Remember by M.A. Mohanraj
AKA that Babysitter story.
Run-of-the-mill erotica, but, well, underaged guys in sweaty Judo uniforms?
*isded*
*coughs*

(Waaaaait. It's totally baby!Dean! ... Kinda? Am I just being myopic?)

When was the last time I did one of these?
Damn.
What happened to the whole backing this shit up here so I wouldn't lose/delete it by accident?
*blinks*
And why have I been private-locking pointless entries I make?

Aw man, don't tell me I'm developing a sense of shame. Argh! Must fight back!

( Ignore, just backup of random scribblings )

So, this is supposed to be my fandom only journal, but - I'm excited.
No, wait - I'm an Aunty.
(... and a little sleep deprived. Murphy declared the day after I'd been out 'socialising' the date for this significant event).

The short of it:
Long labour, healthy 8 pound, 2 ounce baby nephew.
I think he was born with a caul (the midwife said so), but I wasn't paying much attention to that at the time (now I'm all - wait, hey cool!). Dark hair, dark baby-blue eyes. And of course, gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous because he's ours, our little baby, grandson, nephew, who we've been waiting for for so long now (not just the 12 days he's been overdue).

I didn't cry, but I'm a hardass.
*disproves this by melting into a pile of goo*

Ooops. Haven't done much in the last, er, couple of weeks...
:P

( Record of progress on the pencil & paper front )

So, there's this article on germanic wolf myths, homosexuality and ergot poisoning - http://www.primitivism.com/hellhounds.htm
Linked from this SPN fic - http://community.livejournal.com/supernaturalfic/994230.html

After reading the (interesting) article, I read the fic with the idea there might some correspondence between the article and the fic, right? Which it wasn't so much, but it meant I kept coming up with random theories as to how it might as I went along, which ended up as this cracky AU-on-the-fic in my head, so, presenting cracky plot #2,561 as to why 'teh incestuous gay sex scared Sam into leaving for Stanford':
So, Sam's psychic powers? Would probably be a type of Seithr according to Germanic culture, and to practice Seidr, a man is by implication, or must try be 'ergi' (feminine/unmanly), for example, males wanting to practice Seidr say, wearing the clothing of females, equivalent of argr, which as as the article discusses, implied the recipient of homosexual anal sex, or "warg indicates the transformation of man into wolf, arg denotes the notional change of man into woman"). Ummm, anyway, that was much too long an explanation for 'argr' (bottoming) made Sam
'ergi' (feminine) enough to use 'Seidr' (his psychic powers), and it a) freaked him out, and b) (because I was going in an AU off the fic), John found out but got more pissed at Sam because he's the prodigal son, and might be infecting Dean (werewolf themes?) - oh yeah, and possibly knows that's why Sam was getting prophetic dreams, but no one ever tells Dean this. Of course, once they start tripping together (... I meant road tripping! Damn. LSD on the brain...), eventually (a good what, 6 months to a year afterwards?) Sam starts fucking Dean again, and voila - more dreams.

Ah, you ask (well, actually, I don't know why anyone but me would) - but what about the dreams Sam had of Jess's death? He had them for weeks before Jess's death, and he wasn't getting any gay nookie then, was he?
My brain's answer to this - of course not. That's because they all got set off by Sam's consumption of LSD at a party (reeeeeaally bad trip, right?).

It's a really stupid sequence all in all, and I won't even try to write it, because it only makes sense given context as a riff off a random academic paper, and really - wtf? WTF brain?
But, now I'll know how it went. Yay!

(Ergh.
This also takes a turn for the dark-fic in light of the guy Max on Nightmares, if I also posit the Seidr there. Uh. Not so keen on the sexual abuse/rape themes. Maybe he just started fucking other guys, and was being beaten up for it by homophobic relatives when he got home?)


We don't really get any other manly men on the show, because our guys are the 'manly men'. Just chicks of the week, children, older males, and then guys like the bugs or nightmare guy, or even wendigo, who're... kinda twinky.

Ok, so I spontaneously had, after not even trying to write for ages, a plot bunny wee little, but fairly developed, short-story outline.

I have tried/am trying to write it, but. Awwwww, man.
I just don't have ze mad writing skillz. Or maybe it's not that good anyway. But. I want.
Dammit.

Eh. It's up for adoption:
( Story Outline - no crack, just wee-angst )

( Scribblings, for personal record, not good, yadda yadda )

Just a visual record of where I'm at.

( Pics, Warnings: girly-ass, topless guy, headshots, pretty safe. :) )

Ok, so - don't expect any great insight into Sam's character from this, no, no.
These are just songs that have reminded me of Sam, for various reasons.

Wtf LJ? WTF?
LJ has been disgusting to me with this post, mucking with the formatting, spontaneously reverting to earlier versions. *sigh*
Oh the pain.

Sitting inside my Head - Supergroove [Download]
( Lyrics behind cut... )
I was listening to this sometime just after Asylum & Home, and constructed a whole mental fanvid in my head to this, with plenty of shots of the grotty asylum, Home, (& drinking in pilot and Skin), and starting off with the general being haunted by Jess (& his Mom) but for the last section, flip some scenes into sepia and use them out of context as a 'I missed Dean when I left, too' kinda thing. *headdesk*
Sappy. But. Poor Sam. All his dreams go up in smoke.


Trigger Happy Jack - Poe [Download]
( Lyrics behind cut... )
So, the verses are about Sam from Dean's perpective. *Cheats! Cheats big time!*
Yes, this is just another mental fanvid, also largely Asylum inspired. But awww, check those lyrics! The Dr going Emperor Palpatine on Sams head, possibly even the cell-phone call, then Wee!Dean holding baby-sam, then Sam threatening to shoot Dean, actually it's far too tempting to have it a mostly Asylum mental-vid, but I think it'd work better going across many episodes. Like the expression on Dean's face when Sam talks smack about his EMF reader. And, this was way, way before the finale so we are not going to that place when we get to the lines about roadkill, nuh uh. Think the end of Wendigo. And then, yeah, the happy out-of-context angry wincesty shots. *Glee!*


Magna Cum Nada - Bloodhound Gang [Download]
( Lyrics behind cut... )
Oh god, it was just ones that reminded us of them, right? There didn't actually have to be any real rationale behind it, yeah? *groans*
I listened to this one on repeat (and then mental repeat) while cleaning the last (7 person!) flat I moved out of - y'know, just getting my angry cleaning groove on, while said flatmates slacked off. *rolls eyes*
Ok, so it was the mention of the 'Ghostbuster' and the bit from "I can See the future in the palm of my hand". Don't tell Sam though, please?
;)


Passenger - Deftones [Download]
( Lyrics behind cut... )
Ooops, ok, so again I cheat, because kitsune_red was the one who originally pointed this out to me. Just, Sam as Dean's passenger, slightly wincesty vibe, but more importantly, the lack of control Sam has over his life, his destiny. What burned up at Stanford was Sam getting to choose his own future. I'd be angry.


I'm still pretty uncertain as to what Sam's musical tastes would be, except that I think he might like Radiohead *shrugs* (and he has Oasis hair... o_O Not gonna think about that!).
Oh, and that Dean would never, ever play it in the Impala.


There's at least one more song that makes me think of Sam, big time, so I reserve the right to add it, once I remember it.

Holy shit!

I'm gonna sound like a narcissistic dork here, but - hey, it turns out I don't "can't draw" as much as I thought I could.
(Got that? Right!)

Warning, R18 for nudity.
( Adventures in drawing stuff! Edited for better pics. )

( Read more... )

( Dream, cameo appearance by winchesters, then boring )

Originally: May 17th.

( No fic, just list of stupid plot bunnies for wtf27 challenge )

As we gather here for our dearly departed -
Uh, wait, where was I?

Oh yeah, ummm. This is dead mulch for this SPN/Hellblazer (ie John Constantine) crossover I was... poking at. ezgal-inspired, and she also poked at the first part and made it so much better than it was (Which implies... Yeah, I already knew about my lack of m4d wr1ting sk1llz0rz. ;P) before I uh, quite literally lost the plot.
This is actually from back a couple of months (huh, almost exactly), same couple of days as the Ink and werewolf stuff.

( The first time Dean met John Constantine, he lost nearly $500 to him over a poker table. )